1099 Social Blues

Being a full time entrepreneur has great benefits. I control my time, if I’m sick I can rest, I get to take vacations when I want, slow mornings, and I can be emergency ready for things that happen. It has also brought on a loneliness at times. I don’t have a cadence with co workers and I pretty much work alone. I sometimes miss the inside jokes, dinner after work, and opportunities to come and chit chat.

In the pursuit of my dreams and purpose I realize that it cost me a lot of connections. I woke up one day missing people, missing daily text and conversations, and just the energy of people that were once close. I also realized that maybe during those times I had over compensated and filled people in spots of purpose work. I also realized that I had placed a lot of un realistic expectation myself as well. So I allowed myself to experience this season, and although my business has benefited, my social life did not.

One day on my way to my office I felt this feeling of loneliness come over, and I’ve decided to do something about. My goal is to tap back into my community and be intentional. I often have sat wounded and waiting, shifting blame, and that only lasted briefly because I’ve grown past that. I decided to believe that there was space for me still and I want to reconnect and create new memorable moments.

I hope this moment of transparency makes someone feel seen and understood as they pursue what God has called them to do.The season of loneliness may come, but the opportunity to tap back in will present its self again. This season isn’t for long, nor is it a punishment. Sometimes its necessary so you can grow in a different way. If you have energy, capacity, and desire reach out to your people, do it, get reconnected, they miss you too.

-You’re not perfect and thats perfect.